Closure.

It has been almost a month now.

They say girls get over relationships faster than guys. Apparently not.


You seem to have completely moved on with your life and seem a lot better without me.
What was i expecting. Me? To be your pillar of strength, your happiness, your motivation?

Naive.

School matters have been hogging up much of my time, keeping me distracted from every thought of you.

I look forward going to school everyday because this way, i can completely free myself from you.

There are moments where i think about what i am feeling right now.

Do i miss you. Or..
Do i miss the IDEA of you.

Either way, it hurts.

I need closure instead of an escape.

Somebody tell me how i can do this.

REDISCOVERED

Hello readers! (if there is even any)

A dear friend of mine (JOJO) reminded me of my blog which I confidently thought I had deleted surfaced back on as I came back to blogger.com (A sudden rush of nostalgia as I go through my old posts).

This space holds a lot of memories for me in my secondary school days and I'm really glad that it was actually not deleted (phew).

It has been private for about 3 years and I'm opening it up again for anyone to view. There are certainly embarrassing moments but it's all part of life and I have learnt to accept all these as they are everything that makes up what I am today.

I might have included resentment, hatred and childishness in these posts so please dont judge!

Hope you have a fun time here ;)

*should i continue updating this space, do i even have time LOL*

ps: what i have written in the past does not give a fully representation of who i am today. if you are here to be judge-y i suggest you leave before i kick your ass.

Cheers,
Yiktin (or yeekyteeny)

A new chapter of my life :)

Has been a really hectic week for me! Was posted to SRJC and yeah, super unhappy luh.

Since i really wanted to get in NYJC or CJC. 

But after i went for their orientation, my perspective of SRJC totally changed.

It was really NOT BAD. and i REALLY enjoyed the orientation!

eager to say "HI!" or "MORNING!" to them every morning.

eager to do the mass dance!

eager to do cheers and everything.

and of course, eager to bond with my team, PEGASUS 5! RAWR RAWR RAWR.

But now that i'm really out of SRJC and posted to CJC.

I'm kinda.. abit sad?

Always happen to me, i'm close to people and all of us are bonded alrdy then i leave -.-

then they become even closer without me

No one can ever know how much i feel about pegasus 5 man, it's the coolest group on earth :)

CJC was fun too :)

PEOPLE THERE WERE REALLY FRIENDLY.

They knew i was a new girl, so they initiated conversations with me. *touched*

But somehow, i still do feel like an outsider. So i just keep mum most of the time and just stare into space.

But the OGLs were really awesome and kept me accompanied when they see like me emo emo HAHA.

But since we're gonna be posted to our respective classes this coming monday, i hope i'll be able to mingle around with them since everyone will be quite scared of one another on the first day. RIGHT, MAKE SENSE RIGHT :D

Anws, i'm in band ONCE AGAIN... and... i'm kinda scared since i'm gonna be the only J1 there next week.

But my senior seems really friendly!!!!! *thank god*

alright, CJC, CJC BAND, JC LIFE, STUDIES. i'm on my way.

disgrace.

TODAY,
 I have let myself down completely.

I have completely ruined the awesome horn sound.

Insulted the instrument.

And disappointed mr tan & sim.

If i have a second chance. i want to do the audition again.

disgraced with myself.

T.T

Hakuna Matata.

JAE is finally submitted, no more stress! ~.~

But that means that i'm left with only 2 weeks of holidays if i get into a JC.

GOTTA PLAN MY ACTIVITIES FAST, SPEND EVERYDAY WISELY.

Anyways, CNY is coming and i'mmm... kinda excited. There's gonna be ba kwa, all my favourite snacks and both my grandma's food :D' 

Okay, so that means im left with only 11 days to myself.

People, we needa enjoy man!!!! \m/

So... hi JC/POLY

So.. i just got back my Olevel results..

It's much more far-er than my expectations but alright, it's not that bad.

I passed english. (Y)

I passed humanities, first time in the year! :)

But my amaths was..... disappointing. 

But what's done is done. Life.

Surprisingly, i attained an a1 for chinese. wow..

NYJC, CJC and SRJC. which school should i go?

i want to stay 16 forever.

okay, so.. i'm really tired..

physically and mentally.

CJC TUNE IN < 3

After so many weeks of waiting, the tune-in session was finally here! :D

Was intending to go with the SHWO peeps, but apparently, they were either all busy or not interested.

So only me minhui and bronson went... BUT NVM, we three kcpians can own the world ^^ (joke).

Was at first scared and nervous about it, cuz CJC band is quite zai lah. Since SA band was a zai band too, we kinda expected to receive the same kind of attitude we received in SA : the dao and unfriendly attitude < / 3

BUT NO. Everyone was nice and awesome! Not just 1 or 2, EVERYBODY man.

played some games that were arranged by them and had section lunch with them. They were so nice to us unlike the stupid **JC. Although their band, currently has only 15 people, i could see that they were very closely knitted and < 3 each other. wthhhh, jealous much :(

After lunch, we had sectionals with our own section on "blue sky and sunshine". Thank god they chose a piece that was more humanely than the stupid **JC. The seniors patiently guided us through the song and awww, it's been long since i've ever got a senior :( (runs to CJC now)

Then had full band! Hahaha, the sec4s were more than the J2s. LOL. This Brendan guy (student) was conducting us and wow, i swear he is damn good man. Looking back at the days me and minhui conducted.. LOL #noface. He was really skilled in his STROKING and er.. how different sections should improve and etc. LOL. HAHA. *like yall understand what i'm talking about*.

ALSO, they knew when was the right time to play and to be serious. Which is like *phewwwww*. FINALLY, A BAND THAT HAS THIS KIND OF SPIRIT AND ATTITUDE. 

< 3 3 3 3 3

I really like < 3 their band to the core sia.

Haiz, but CJC... :/ should i?

NYP & CCA ORIENTATION ^^

Went to NYP in the morning with Valerie, Jasmine, Jo-anne and Jia Ning!

The IT people were abit... FORCEFUL. And we were dragged to their counter to listen to their lecturer talk.

And then they forced us to play their game.. hence.. the weird posts on my wall LOL.

But their school was quite cool! Think that's cuz we took a thorough tour around their whole school :D

Went for Business.. Chemical life science.. and engineering! :D

Chemical life science was the best cuz we play a lot of stuff and we had a lot of freebies LOL

There was this jelly like thing in the food section, cool and nice. :)

But overall, wasn't really interested in any course in their school.

Then went back KCP for CCA orientation ^^

Too bad the caifan wasn't open so... minhui & me dint get to eat anything T_T

Nvm, girl guides had free drinks and pizza. So not too bad :D

Anyways, AS USUAL. the band was AWESOME. DUH. 

Many ppl "signed up". Wohoo! :D

Every time hear the band play... wah... so proud of them. #attachment.

Then went for dinner with Minhui, Joei and BC.

Waited for Benedict, Darius and Nicholas for 1 bloooooody hour. Then turned out to be that they were at third floor while we were at food court. zzzz :)

Hahaha, but it was fun playing truth and dare and some tempo game with them.

Miss the good old days while we slack in J8 after band. < 3

band is awesome forever. K bye.

JC OR POLY?!

Finally went for POLY open houses today! Was supposed to visit all POLYs but spent too much time at Temasek POLY :( So ended up visiting only 3 :(

TP was errr, not too bad. But their people abit... dao. Abit scary. But lol, since they had big goodie bags, i'm happy. #materialisticauntie. Saw Guan and it was er.. nvm.

But their food court was super duperrrrr awesome. Fish and chips for $3.50!
STEAK FOR $4.50! SERIOUSLY?! WOHOO.

but din't get to try lah... :/

Okay.. yah so Temasek was not too bad.

Next was SINGAPORE POLY :D

they gave us BAGGU bags! WOHOO :D And they had this cute figurine pen thingyyy, wtthhhh, cute maxxx.

So yahhh, they had many courses, and since it's one of the better polys, or rather, TOP poly. I should be mad excited or something right. BUT LOL, i just din't feel RIGHT in their school. When the lectures were talking... i'm like half drifted away to somewhere else.. i wasn't even listening to one of them. :x #guiltyface.

But yeah, can't deny that their school is well facilitated, very new :) 

Then NgeeAnn Poly! < 3

Since we went empty stomach the whole day, the first thing we did was to chiong to their "Makan Place" to MAKAN. There was this super attractive stall that sells hotplate sorta thing, and of course. Since it's attractive, i bought it lah. * LOL OKAY I SHALL NOT DESCRIBE MY MEAL O.O*

Anywaysss, when i was at their "HALL?" and consulting the lecturers, i was veryyyyyyy into what they were talking and payed a lot of attention.
Business studies and Arts Business Management were like my top favourite courses.. 

but after what i heard from the lecturer abt ABM, i'm like.. uncertain of it.

Fact : The art scene is Singapore is kinda pathetic and very much unappreciated.
-_-"

The only one that i kinda really WANT but...
._.

Well well. Anything just see results first lor. Hor?
:/

Cheater.

Went out with Jasmine today for some shopping! But LOL. We didn't really buy A LOT of stuff.

Super amazing.

But since i'm out of the house, i'm happy.

Now that the holidays are coming to an end, i must make full use of everyday before i enter JC or POLY.

Siansationz. 

So.... what should i do tomorrow.

confirm one-sided.

Twitter is such an ass its showing me all the things i dont want to see.

Everyyyyy tweet i see from you, i < / 3

You this ass.

I swear i will never ever ever ever talk to you ever again.

T_T < / 3

K bye, sorry for my awesome post title.